The Theological Discussion

By Nancy Leitz

When we moved to Hampton, Virginia, Jerry was five years old and too young to go to school so he mostly hung around with me and luckily, there was a boy just his age living across the street who he played with every day. The boy's name was Chris and he and Jerry became great friends, and had long discussions on many topics in our back yard.

The spot they chose to sit in to settle the important matters they debated was directly under my kitchen window so I was privy to most of the discussions they had.

Once they invited another boy who was an Air Force "brat" to join their conversation. The topic this day was "Where is the best place you ever lived?" Well, our Jerry had been born in Darby, Pennsylvania and had recently moved to Hampton so that was the extent of his experience in strange and exotic places.

Chris's Dad was a local attorney and he had lived in Hampton for all of his five years. So when the Air Force kid, named Bootsy Myers, answered the question with "Well, it's between Stuttgart and Okinawa," they were immediately intimidated and kicked him out of their discussion. They didn't need that one-upsmanship; they were cool in their own situation and comfortable with their lot.

Once, the boys were sitting under the kitchen window, as usual, and the discussion turned to religion. This was a new subject for them and they very tentatively decided to step into the theological waters. Actually, they didn't step, they plunged! But you really need a little background to understand their concerns.

The Hansen's had recently had their home painted and the painter who did the job was named Jesse Kursy. Jesse started the job on Memorial Day, May 30th. He painted two small windows and decided to go fishing.

He came back the following week and was painting another window when he heard the fire siren sounding and was off and running to the excitement of the fire.

A month went by and Jesse came back and scraped the front door, then left to go to a softball game.

This went on all summer and finally, on Labor Day (September 6th), he put the finishing touches on the house. It was the next day that the boys began to try to figure God out. Their conversation went something like this:

CHRIS: "Who made the World?"

JERRY: "God made the World."

CHRIS: "Who made the sky?"

JERRY: "God made the sky."

CHRIS: "Who made this grass?"

JERRY: "God made this grass."

CHRIS: "Who made my house?"

JERRY: “God made your house."

Chris jumped up, put his hands on his hips and shouted at Jerry, " Well, God might have made it, but Jesse Kursy painted it."

Jerry knew he had lost this one. He threw his hands in the air in defeat and slowly stole away.

Another day at another time he might be able to best Chris Hansen, but not this time, and not on this subject. This time it was cut and dried, he was done; and he knew it.

We had all watched Jesse Kursy take an entire summer to paint five windows and a door. The debate was over, the winner had left in triumph and Jerry was left in abject defeat. Maybe next time!

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Old Letters, Old Friends

By Jeanne Waite Follett

Spring 2005
My husband doesn't know my name. After thirty years of love and companionship, he no longer knows what part I play in his life.

He comes up the stairs into the loft where I am working at the computer. Everything appears normal. He's a hale and healthy man of 75, though lately he has been losing more weight than is good for him.

"Say, gal," he says. "How about getting me a phone number so I can call my wife?"

He says "gal" because he doesn't know who I am. He speaks in a complete sentence and by that I know he is hallucinating. When I ask who he wants to call, he responds, "Betty." He dislikes Betty and would never talk to her.

"How about Carol?" I ask. "I don't have Betty's phone number." He agrees.

I call his first wife and Ken and Carol have a "conversation." Carol is very kind and talks to him at length. Ken tries to hold the phone to his ear and listen. Sometimes he gets a couple words out and I can tell some lucidity is returning because his speech becomes more difficult. The phone frequently slips to his neck and he looks puzzled.

My husband has been stolen from me by a disease called Alzheimer's. It has been almost five years since he was diagnosed with dementia; three since a neurological reaction to hernia surgery slammed us up against the wall with the dreaded "A" word.

I've kept him at home, caring for him by myself. The disease is insidious and has led me down a deep, dark path so craftily that I am in way over my head before I realize what has happened.

I had wanted to keep him at home until he no longer knew me, our home or the life we had together. That time has arrived. It has become far too dangerous for each of us for him to continue to live at home.

His particular type of Alzheimer's is characterized by its rapid progression, almost constant hallucinations, delirium and muscle contractions that cause him to fall frequently. He can no longer dress or groom himself. Incontinence is becoming a problem.

More and more often I have to hand feed him. He cannot be left alone even for a few minutes. He is often frightened, often worried. He says, in his more lucid moments, he wants "out," wants to stop taking "the pills," his six dementia medications.

September 2005
I take Ken to Arizona with the aid of his eldest daughter. We spend the night before the flight in a hotel in Anchorage hoping to minimize the negative impacts of travel. Ken wanders around the hotel room all night, talking to imaginary listeners. None of us sleeps.

During the flight, we sit on either side of him, each holding one of his hands trying to keep him from pulling on the seat in front of him. He becomes more and more agitated, less and less connected. I give him his evening medications early, trying to calm him.

That evening, I place my husband in an assisted living home. I turn his care over to strangers. The home is very nice, very clean, but I cannot bear to watch. Walking out of that home on the morning of my return flight is the single most difficult thing I have ever had to do in my life.

I come home to Moose Pass and begin a winter of introspection. I sit and I wait. There is no closure. Instead, there are periodic emotional upheavals as various family members try to adjust to Ken's circumstances. I feel severely conflicted: I should be there to hold him and protect him from the things that frighten him nowadays; I should be at home, trying to heal.

I wait. I have no desire to socialize, but friends and neighbors watch out for me. They stop by to chat, invite me for dinner, make sure I am occupied at Christmas. Still I wait.

Long, endless days; even longer nights. I cannot get to sleep until four or five in the morning. I sleep until noon, hating myself for it, but unable to adjust to an earlier schedule. I wait some more.

February 2006
Ken's daughter calls to say that he has taken a turn for the worse, and we think it might signal the start of a terminal bout of dehydration that we have been expecting.

I get Ken's medical records out, working on a timeline of the progression of the disease, seeing it through his neurologist's eyes with her words. By late evening I must force myself to think of something else. Unfortunately I settle on my years just out of high school.

I think of mistakes I had made then, both in my work and in my personal relationships. I think of a first love, long before I met Ken: some ill-considered words I have rued for forty years and an apology I have wanted to tender all this time. Too late now, as he died a long time ago.

Tossing and turning at two in the morning, my brain doing really bad things to me. I am desperate to find anything else to think about other than those two troubles. I fear an emotional meltdown, recognizing the symptoms.

I recall a shoe box filled with old letters that I wrote forty years ago to a friend. She had returned them to me six years ago, and I have often thought of chucking the whole box of letters into the woodstove unread, fearing that they might contain some long forgotten embarrassment I wouldn't want known.

I get the box from the bottom drawer of my desk and pluck a letter out at random. All my troubles have set me up for the emotional tornado that rips through me as I read that first letter.

There it all is: a chance, late-night meeting with my first love, coffee at an all-night restaurant, apology offered. I'd been met with understanding, forgiveness, his own apologies and enduring affection. How could I have forgotten such a monumental event in my life?

I sit up all night reading those letters, laughing and crying. Long forgotten events come tumbling back into my memory. I am astounded at how much I've forgotten.

But the best part, the very best, is what lay between the lines in those old letters - unfailing, unquestioning friendship from many.

For days afterwards, I reread those letters, write dozens of emails to friends about my discovery. To a select few I speak of that old relationship, how it has formed me into the person I am today. I speak of the lessons I learned from it and how those lessons have helped make my marriage to Ken last thirty years.

I speak of wanting to make that apology for forty years, that I now know things need to be said while there is still time.

I begin contacting friends from those old days, telling them how much I have valued their friendship then and now. I tell my friends of today the same. I am looking back on that young woman that I used to be with understanding, tolerance and some fondness despite all her youthful mistakes, as I reconcile my first thirty years with my last thirty years. I am becoming a whole person.

I begin to see patterns in my life. I see that things do indeed happen for the best and that there seem to be reasons things happen as they do. May not have been what I wanted to have happen at the time; may not have seen any reason for it then.

I puzzle about what I may have done to deserve watching my husband's brain rot away these past five years and then it occurs to me that perhaps it had nothing to do with ME. Maybe Ken needed me there for HIM.

I sense the beginning of healing. This dreadful journey that I have been on with Ken is far from over and there can be no closure yet. I know there are some land mines waiting out there for me, but I can feel myself becoming stronger, less wounded, ready to face what this journey may bring.

And that box of old letters, unburned and unread all these years? Perhaps they were just waiting for the time when they would do me the most good.

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Sharing My Birthday Pony

By Ann Berger

As a child on a Minnesota farm in the 1920s, with eight sisters and one brother, I was happy to get to pick the flavor of homemade ice cream for my birthday - never mind getting a pony. Instead, at age 65, my very own 17-year-old “birthday pony” showed up as a 15-hand high, registered purebred Arabian mare wrapped in a sleek coat of flea-bitten grey.

This all started on Mother’s Day when daughter Jane visited me on Point Dume in Malibu, California. We sipped tea on the patio feasting our souls on a flock of pelican that had come for lunch, dive bombing schools of fish. Focusing on the graceful pelicans and the ripples caused by the fish, we fell into reminiscing when, suddenly, Jane asked me to tell again the stories of Lady, our mare, of my girlhood. With an air of mischief, but keeping her eyes on the pelicans, she said, “How about if we’d take horseback riding lessons?”

Riding lessons? Well, why not?

The next Saturday, she drove out from her home in Santa Monica to join me for the first of our weekly sessions with 88-year-old Mabel Cook, Malibu’s premier riding teacher, who furnished the perfect school horses for these two novice riders.

During my usual morning walks with Malibu neighbors, John and Marie, I rhapsodized about our riding lessons. Marie waited for me to take a breath and jumped in to take my breath away with, “How would you like to have Kaffeyn?“

”Who’s Kaffeyn?”

“She’s the mother of our foal and gelding.” Marie hurried on, “ We’re prepared to give her to you along with her registration papers.”

“Why in the world would you give her away?” I blundered.

“Kaffeyn doesn’t get enough exercise.” Seeing me in shock Marie continued. “All you have to do is ride her, pay for her feed and farrier bill. She can stay at our corral with her son and daughter. ”

John jumped in with, “You’d be doing us a favor. This 17-year-old mare needs more exercise. She no longer competes in endurance races.”

Her name, Kaffeyn, was a combination of the names of her Dam and Grand National Champion Sire of the Polish line. She had been trained under both English and Western saddle. Jane and Ichose English style lessons.

Oh, happy day at the thrill of dropping the reins and feel Kaffeyn's smooth maneuvers at the touch of my legs. She responded to voice commands when I lunged her during warm-up and cooling down sessions. With bridle and saddle removed, she relished the well-earned rolls on the ground, followed by vigorous shaking dust into the treetops.

She was too good to keep to myself so I suggested sharing her with Nora, the manager of SERT (Special Equestrian Riding Therapy), where I had been volunteering with handicapped children and grownups. She hesitated to use a high-spirited Arabian with her group of students. I offered to stay out of sight while Nora came over to meet and tack up Kaffeyn for a get-acquainted ride. An hour alone with Kaffeyn, Nora asked for a chance to put her on trial at SERT.

After three days of Kaffeyn running in the pasture with the other volunteering horses, Nora asked me to bring her to the mounting stand. Time for Kaffeyn’s first class.

Nora directed me to take the lead rope and stay at Kaffeyn’s head while she and two assistants got in position to lift a 19-year-old college student who had been in an automobile accident leaving him paralyzed. Kaffeyn turned her head to watch the mounting. She cast an eye at me.

The rider could not hold up his head and his arms and legs were spastic. Dread spread over me. What if his involuntary leg movements spooked Kaffeyn?

I searched Kaffeyn’s face. I wept. Her eyes had softened into marshmallows. She followed my lead at a regal, deliberate pace delighting her precious rider and letting me share my come-lately birthday pony. Within days, the students affectionately renamed her “Decaf.”

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Looking Backwards

By Johna Ferguson

How many of you remember way back when, in the 40s when boyfriends gave their girlfriends one of their pins to wear. Maybe it was in high school and they gave her their HiY pin or perhaps they even belonged to a high school fraternity, popular then in my city, and gave her that pin to wear on her sweater or blouse so everyone could see it.

If not in high school, then certainly in college when the boys pinned you with their fraternity pin. Oh, what joy and bliss to know you belonged to someone and only that someone who wanted you.

During my college days, I had several times been pinned but always gave them back to the owner when we broke up. I still have my own sorority pin on my gold charm bracelet. I suppose I should give it back before I die but then, I bought it so I consider it mine.

If all went well, then the pinned couple would go on to get engaged and then finally married. Among my college sorority friends, sad to say, about a third of them are divorced, some early on, others later after years of marriage.

But the disadvantage of being pinned meant you couldn’t date others. College was a time to stretch yourself; meet all kinds of new people and learn to interact with them in various situations. Being pinned tied you to just one group of people, and they were pretty much the same type.

They were usually from middle or professional class families, mostly college educated themselves. But fraternities and sororities are just a very small part of a university campus; there were lots of students living in dorms or with their own families who do not belong to that clique and had no desire to either.

They sat next to you in class, worked on committees you worked on, or just rubbed elbows in the cafeterias or libraries. Their lives were so varied it was a shame not to get acquainted with them. I wish I had spread my wings more in those days for I am sure I missed out on a lot, but I was rather shy when it came to meeting strangers.

I do remember my one lab partner in zoology. He was from parents born in Russia and he was really interested in science. We had to dissect a frog and define all the muscles and bones. It was enough to make me sick, but he kindly helped me through the course, but that was all. We never talked about anything else, yet I am sure he was full of stories he could tell me about his Russian parents and some of their customs. It was a missed chance, one I still regret.

Actually as I look back on those college days, I regret I didn’t go out of my way and become acquainted with people from different cultures. I went on to major in sociology and all that background information would have served me well after graduation in my various jobs.

I hope you all took better advantage of your time in college and absorbed more than just having a good time, getting good grades, finding a husband and finally earning your degree.

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Wings

My life has been filled with incredible, memorable moments and events. All the usual family highlights were there – marriages, births, grandchildren’s and great-grandchildren’s arrivals, a 70th birthday party reunion that was at least as satisfying as it would be to attend my own memorial service.

Additionally, my career has brought stellar experiences, many involving celebrities and who can be casual about that? So forgive the name-dropping, but for a little farm girl from rural Illinois to end up opening a concert for the iconic Pete Seeger, years later having him stand and listen to me sing a long set of songs and, many years later, spontaneously kiss me on the cheek, is heady stuff.

To have Theodore Bikel hug and kiss me, pat my behind, then meet me for a day of hanging out at a folk festival where he introduced me to Fred Hellerman of the Weavers, is equally so.

Accompanying Frances Sternhagen (Cliffie’s mom on Cheers) on the autoharp as she sang Cockles and Mussels was fun. Having Julius LaRosa stand mesmerized by my psaltery through at least six songs was exciting.

May Sarton’s invitation to visit her at her Maine home, and subsequently sending me a personally-inscribed copy of her latest book, calling me her role model, was a thrill. An ongoing friendship with my writing teacher and mentor, William Least Heat-Moon, that prompted wonderful spoken and written compliments on my music and writing, was heart-warming. (His proclamation that my quilt program was “wonderfully tribal” was high praise from a person of Native American heritage.)

The hundreds of settings in which I performed created lasting memories: the acoustics inside the bell-shaped old historic Huguenot church in New Paltz were breathtaking – it was truly like singing inside a bell. I sang on the inside steps of FDR’s home when a sudden downpour ended our outdoor concert; for weddings on the back porch of Mills Mansion and at Opus 40; at FDR’s gravesite; on the Clermont Lawn at sunset; inside Olana, at Washington’s Headquarters, Senate House and Locust Grove and almost every other Mid-Hudson Valley historic restoration.

In the parlor at Mohonk Mountain House; onboard cruise ships; in Sack’s Lodge with Ann Jackson singing along robustly (while Eli Wallach played cards in the next room); in front of an original Eric Sloane painting in his museum; and, best of all – led Amazing Grace with a hundred people packed into the tiny, old stone chapel at Star Island in the Isles of Shoals – an unparalleled moment.

All of these riches, and many more, are treasured memories. Yet, when I think of what day of my life I’d give almost anything to relive (I don’t think I need an entire day – an hour or two would do), it would be a day to fly like the wind on my old Schwinn bike with the hot prairie breezes blowing; to smell the steamy tar of the straight, flat roadway; to hear the rustle of the tall cornstalks lining both sides of the roads, with no traffic but me.

In dreams I fly – up to the ceiling, down long flights of stairs – or soar high in an electric blue sky over an ocean below. I never dream of riding my bike. Only in my body’s memory is the feeling so vivid.

Like most teens, I was often appropriately miserable. Although my parents were kind and loving, they did tightly control my social life. My typical teen-age angst, blended with a little loneliness and isolation, kept me from seeing how blessed and privileged I really was. So the bike riding was an antidote to feeling restricted and confined – a metaphor for the wings I hoped would carry me out into the wide and promising world of independence and freedom.

I got the wings. I got the freedom. I got to fly, in so many ways. I’d still like the bike ride – one more time.

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My Writing Career

By Johna Ferguson

I never took a university course about writing other than term papers and they weren’t exciting, just necessary. I never seemed to have the desire or the discipline to write. My first introduction to it was when I joined Group Health.

New members were asked to volunteer for various jobs and I applied to work on the staff of the journal that went out to all members monthly. I had just returned from my first bicycle trip in China in 1983, and thought members might be interested in that type of article so I submitted it and it was accepted. I really was quite shocked to say the least.

For the next year I wrote monthly articles on various subjects for inclusion. I didn’t call it writing, just telling people what I felt or knew about different things. Then I moved to China so that ended that venue.

But the writing bug had settled in my veins. In 1986, I took my first laptop computer to China and decided to write. First I would write in a journal daily and second I would write lots of letters. A side benefit of that would be I would get at least a few letters back. One day not long ago, I read through all those years of journal entries plus piles of letters I had written, returned to me by my friends over the years.

Then when I was home one summer visiting family and friends, I visited my old neighbor friend, Sally, living in a retirement home. She was sad and bored with her life as she no longer could drive. I enjoyed telling her about some of the funny or sad times I’d had while in China and she suggested when I returned I write about those times like a letter, but more deeply, like a newspaper article so she could live her sedentary life vicariously through mine which seemed exciting.

In China I started writing her weekly and she wrote back to me a monthly letter filled with amazement at what I seemed to be going through. She just passed on last year, but on my last visit she handed me all those all letters and printed out emails I sent.

But I’m jumping ahead of my time. Another summer when I was home, I signed up for an eight week course teaching how to write your autobiography held for seniors at a nearby center. The first four week,s we were taught clues on how to write our autobiography and the second four weeks were writing for fun. We were to write anything we wanted out of class and bring it to class to read to the other seven students to hear their comments.

That class really got me interested in writing since I heard such favorable comments about the three children’s stories I had written, and I went back to China filled with vim and vigor. I dashed off, which is my usual style, nine more children’s stories. But what for, I said as I sat back after finishing them.

I had many ideas from UNICEF giving me a grant to publish them in English and Chinese so young Chinese could get a quick boost in learning English, to getting a grant from the Gates Foundation to publish them in both languages for both countries with a tape of them in English and Chinese. But I don’t think writers, if I could really stretch the truth and call myself one of that clan, can sell themselves very well, thus there are many agents are around.

Also at that time, right after the class was over, I started on my autobiography. After I had written about 70 pages of single spaced words, I called the former writing teacher to see if she’d read it and make a few comments about the direction I was taking. She replied she’d love to read it but admitted she didn’t have time to critique it or edit it, but would add a few comments. But like the children’s stories, it has just remained in my computer, about three-quarters finished.

Why the bug hits one I have no idea, but when I spied an article in the Seattle Post-Intelligencer saying they were looking for essays on various subjects, I submitted one and it was selected for publication in December 2005. I thought maybe there’s hope.

Then in April I submitted a second one and it was also selected for publication. I truthfully was in seventh heaven. Even my granddaughter was overjoyed to see her grandma’s picture and article in the paper.

But then drought again set in until I received a poem sent to me by a friend in Anacortes. She’d joined a writing group and was having so much fun at trying different styles and types of writing. She spurred me on again and I started writing essays whenever I felt a subject surface. This wasn’t often, but I did write quite a few, but as usual they were sitting in the computer, on hibernation I guess.

Then there was this entire flap on the internet about blogs and how one should read them or write one. I looked up those for elders and found The Elder Storytelling Place. I have submitted stories that have been accepted and printed. Now how many are submitted weekly, how many are rejected and who does this selecting is out there in netherland, but other reader's comments about my essays are just as good to me as having them published in a magazine.

I just keep plugging away at it. Perhaps one day I’ll actually see my name as the author under one of my writings in some famous magazine. But until then, all I can say is try it, you might like it. You can write about so many things that have happened in your life. After all they only happened to you, not to any of us other interested readers. We’re waiting to read yours, so good luck.

EDITOR'S NOTE: In answer to Johna's speculation about how this blog is edited, I – Ronni Bennett – do the selecting and publishing. In the years since the blog was inaugurated in April 2007, only a handful of stories have been rejected – mostly for racism and misogyny.

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Landscapes

By Lyn Burnstine of The Lynamber Times

Stanley Kuniz wrote “I have walked through many lives, some of them my own.”
I, too, have walked through many lives – and many landscapes.
My childhood’s dual landscapes were the open fields – some flat, some gently undulating,
and the deciduous forests of Southern Illinois.
Later, I got to know the open, flattened cornfields of central Illinois
where once stood vast reaches of waving prairie grasses.

I have adjusted to other landscapes:
live oaks draped with Spanish moss;
smelly crushed-oyster-shell side streets;
busy roadways; wild, rock-bound ocean shore;
suburban neighborhoods echoing with sounds of vigorous life; apartments full of noisy early-risers;
woods studded with the evergreens rare to my native landscape;
the blasphemous racket of motors and machines;
even a town that smelled of soybeans
and of the corn syrup that has made us fat.

Little did I know, in my childhood,
that the quiet, peaceful existence that translated then as boredom and loneliness,
was settling into the very synapses of my brain for all time,
a sense of place defining me as surely as did a genetic heritage, religious upbringing, and family customs.

Little did I know that I would forever mourn the whippoorwill,
the bobwhite,
the hazelnuts in their prickly burrs alongside isolated country roads,
the tall, rustling corn,
the open sky, the far horizons in every direction, the blessed silence.

I have a deep love for my adopted landscape -
the beautiful Hudson Valley.
But at seventy-six, I finally have to admit
(as in the words of a clever song by Joel Mabus)
that “ the verdict is in and the jury agrees”
and I am “Hopelessly Midwestern.

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The Last Prose of Summer

By Lyn Burnstine of The Lynamber Times

I waited on my bike at the intersection where we had agreed to meet and ride on together. Two twelve-year-olds just beginning what would be a lifelong friendship, we chose a place mid-way between her country home and my small-town one.

On that hottest of summer days, even though I arrived parched and hot, I assumed I would cool off under the big shade tree where I waited for Barb. This was in the days long before the ubiquitous water-bottle and I’m sure I was seriously dehydrated.

Suddenly I began to feel awful: weak, dizzy, clammy with cold sweats, chills and nausea. By the time Barb’s parents had rescued me and put me to bed in their house, it was apparent that I had a rip-roaring case of heat exhaustion from which I recovered slowly over a span of two years.

It even kept me from joining all the other area kids in what was a major source of our summer income: detasseling hybrid seed corn. The first time I tried working on a field crew out in the hot sun, all those heat exhaustion symptoms returned, and I had to postpone my detasseling debut till the following summer.

I made it through that next season just fine, although it didn’t provide me with the fame it did Cindy Crawford (the most famous and highest-paid 1990's model who had been discovered while detasseling corn in an Illinois cornfield, and whose name is synonymous with the word “detasseling” in Google searches!).

I was born and raised in Southern Illinois where summer daytime temperatures were consistently in the eighties and nineties with hot nights and breaks in the heat only when it rained. How my sister and I loved those cooling showers. We would slosh around barefoot in the rain-soaked grass, jumping to make it splash us all over.

People sometimes laugh when I say southern Illinois, thinking I am joking until I point out that the lower part of the state is on a level with Kentucky and Tennessee and is, indeed, a very southern culture – accents and idioms included.

We later moved to central Illinois, to a two-storied farmhouse surrounded by majestic shade trees. The summer temperature readings were more moderate there than in southern Illinois. The downstairs of the farmhouse stayed cooler, with linoleum floors that felt cool to lie on during the hottest days. I did some of my reading there, and some outside under the big maple trees, trying to catch a stray breeze.

The upstairs had two bedrooms and a storeroom. In the winter, the big front bedroom, with windows on all three sides, was closed off so that our “warm morning” coal stove, huffing away in the downstairs dining and family room, could heat the warmer bedroom at the top of the stairs enough to sleep in.

The same windows that let in the winter’s cold served a good purpose in the summer, providing cross-ventilation. Even so, many’s the night I pulled the bed close to the window so I could put my pillow on the window sill to get more air. (I’ll never forget my first summer after moving to New York and the joy of discovering a climate where the nights often cooled off twenty degrees or more. I had never experienced that in Illinois or Mississippi and I was in rapture.)

As a young girl and as a young woman, I had an inability to sweat normally. It caused me discomfort, and led to the heat exhaustion that began this tale. In recent years, my sister has felt impelled to apologize to me for not understanding the impact of that condition, along with my myopia, on my participation in sports.(Or I should say “non-participation.”)

It’s true that when you can’t see beyond the end of your arm it’s hard to see the ball and, when you can’t cool off by sweating, you tend to choose quiet, sedentary activities like reading and making music. Those interests have served me well through the years. And besides, how many seventy-six-year-olds can still play baseball? But I can still read and write books, and make music.

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How Big is Your World?

By Lois Cochran of Guitar Grandma

 

Sarah ate a quarter. Not a quarter of an apple, or a quarter of a grape
Sarah ate a quarter of a dollar.

Sarah was always eating something or other (mostly other)
she wasn’t supposed to eat.

Sarah believed that your world is as big as you make it
And Sarah’s world was getting bigger all the time

Sarah’s world was filled with so many curious things
And she wanted to taste them all

Sarah had a big belly ache one day, a really big, bad belly ache
So bad, her mother took her directly to the hospital

Sarah would probably have loved this new adventure
But her belly hurt so much she could only cry

Sarah’s mom was angry and said some bad words to the hospital man
She wondered why, but her belly hurt too much to pry.

Sarah’s mom said, "Don’t worry, Sweet Sarah, we’ll find another hospital."
Again, she wondered why, but she could only cry.

Sarah’s mom knew that if they only had insurance...
Someone would be helping Sarah now to feel better

And she began to cry.
Some people live in smaller worlds that don’t include everyone

Such a damn shame!

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A Speeding Ticket

By Johna Ferguson

I don’t know how many of you can remember your first speeding ticket, but it is one of those indelible memories from my past. Part of the reason may be that it was the only one I ever got, but another part may be due to the circumstances surrounding it.

I was a teenager when I got it, not even driving for a year; actually the most vulnerable time of any youths’ driving career. I was driving my mother’s year-old DeSoto, a sedan with four doors and those wonderful headlights that disappeared under covers when turned off.

Five of my high school friends and I were headed to my beach house for the weekend, a drive of about 40 miles, mostly on four-lane pavement. It was the end of summer, yet one of those suddenly hot, sunny days and we were all dreaming of swimming and laying on the beach gossiping about our futures.

I was normally a very steady girl and my mother trusted my judgment in most matters, so she had no qualms about lending me her car or the beach house. We packed enough food for a week and piled into the car Saturday morning. As soon as we all got in, of course the radio had to be turned on to the latest popular music, loud enough so everyone could hear it.

We were singing at the tops of our voices when one of the girls in the back seat commented that there was a car following us, but quite a ways back. Actually, there was hardly anyone on the road that day, so she noticed that it was keeping up with us, but at a steady distance behind us.

After watching it for a minute or so, we decided it was the state patrol. I checked the speedometer and saw we were going 60 in a 50 mph area. What to do? We decided I should speed up and maybe I could lose it.  We were rather immature in our knowledge about police, not realizing they could call ahead to another car and have us stopped.

Finally I noticed we were actually going 80, but we’d left that other car far behind so we couldn’t see it anymore. Then out of a side lane popped another police car with siren roaring; we had to stop.

The officer wrote me a ticket for doing 80 in a 50 mph zone. If he’d been young and cute we probably would have tried to sweet talk him into a warning ticket, but he was a gruff older man. He told me I’d have a court date in the nearby town of 13,000 on Tuesday.

Of course I’d be in school then so I asked if I could go into the town and just pay the ticket. He said things weren’t done that way, but I could try. We headed off to the police station/jail to plead our case. We six traipsed in wearing very short shorts, sandals and bright tee-shirts.

The Captain was out, being the weekend, so we dealt with a nice young, good-looking sergeant. I explained our plight, but all for naught; he wouldn’t change it to a warning. I then decided it was time to “pull rank”.

I asked if I could phone my uncle for he had been mayor of that small city for two terms and also was a lawyer and judge. The sergeant asked what his name was and he realized that the family name was the same as mine. He sat for a few minutes thinking it over, and said well yes, he supposed he could change it to a warning since it was my first, but I would still have to pay $30 since I was going 30 miles an hour over the set speed limit.

My friends had decided we would split the bill so everyone forked over $5 and we smiled happily as we quietly walked, sedately out of that building. We vowed to never tell our mother’s about our experience, but we all knew that we would be more careful drivers from that day on.

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